Sporadic. A new word for my vocabulary.

I'm putting my own career at stake here. Three months, is all I'm asking for. I've been lazy these couple of days. I have random sporadic bursts of moods - sometimes I'm effective, and at other times I'm not very. At home, distractions are simply everywhere.

I've also lost my special edition copy of National Geographic magazine, all about the technology of our space exploration attempts and our very own universe.

The day has truly been good for me if I think about it. I have finally set myself free from the pain I've blocked out all these years. A bit shivery and shaky at the brink of my confession so I didn't really specify what it was exactly, but being able to indicate it for the first time... and now, I see a new light. Eventually this light is going to fade if I don't seize it. So lets make a jump for it at an opportunity like this.

I would start by reading, lots and lots of material. These information would be useless if not for jotting down interesting things, keep them in the file of my own interest. I would also make a division of notes, one being the most important are 'Mental Methods', which I dwelt with for quite sometime. That is my mission for tonight. I'm now procrastinating my work for tomorrow. I'd soon take a day off for my art. I really do know my priorities huh?

A fruit for thought, there are articles I've come across spontaneously in these 2 days, and it is true to believe people have been spending huge amounts of time that does not result to any fruitful development. I'm referring to the activities such as [as one sole example] spending infinite amount of time on television dramas that are unlikely spur ideas from you, or are beneficial to your own production of film. If you're not planning on producing anything out of it, then what was the use of the time? The sacrifices polymaths took specifically, was to manage their time properly and to not spend it on the wrong and wasted intentions. They sharpen their skills in a linear way, connecting the dots from one unrelated field to another field of expertise with whatever time they have. Half way through the age of their lives, they would be satisfied to know they have tackled so many areas one normal person could not comprehend. Say, your parents come home from work, instead of preparing dinner and watching football/american idol [depending on the class you belong to, not that I am nudging at the idea of stereotypes of two genders], if they would have spent their time painting or mustering a foreign language, wouldn't they truly be more enlightened/satisfied?

Which is what I am aiming for, fingers crossed. I'm already half way there with some of my interests and skills. The next thing is to cope. A polymath. What a fancy description.